2009-04-27 - 4:44 p.m.
so many questions....but nows not the time to ask them.
I'm hurt and saddened...but mostly hurt.
She said she'd been unhappy for about 4 months....communication was never her forte...
wtf man....I'm still in shock. utter shock. like I got hit by a bus that I didnt see....like, in the end she made me out to be this insensitive asshole....
You're probably wondering what I'm talking about...Michelle broke up with me....well, lets back up. she moved out--therefore passive-aggressively breaking up with me.....like wtf who does that??!!?!?!?!!?!? Thats the type of thing you only see in movies!
it was like the 3 and a half years we had been together meant nothing to her since she didnt have the audacity to tell me face to face. it just kills me. I mean, we were headed towards a breakup, I knew that. but the way it went down is what makes it all so hard....4 months out of 3.5 years...like, I dont even know what to do with that, but at the same time I know I just need to move forward. And I'm doing that, but there are points in the day where I just wonder, like what the fuck ya know.
There are positives to the breakup. I can do things for myself now. I can hang out with my friends now--she disliked most of them. I can shop at Whole Foods! I can save money now! And I'll tell ya. I am rather excited thinking about the next relationship because I wont settle and I get to look for somebody who is on my level. But at the same time, that might be hard to find. I mean, I'm 26, I own my own home and I'm very successful in my job so it might make a few people intimidated. I'm excited for the journey to start though. I'll keep ya updated.
